NEW SEM ٩(•̮̮̃-̃)۶

Assalamualaikum..

4th March, start with a new journey as a nurse student after having a long break of holidays.. Starting from 9 Jan - 3 March.. huuuhh,, lama kan??  uitm memang baik kan bab2 cuti ni... kawan2 semua dah start belajar for about 2 weeks, tapi  aku masih lagi bertapak di rumah.. ada je yang x puas hati kan kalau bab2 cuti ni.. and, at the same time, my friend told me that they need to do a lot of assignment and still, dorang asyik dengki je.. ishhh3.. cool la bro!! masing2 punya cuti kan.. hik3.. tp ada je kawan aku yg sorang tu, ponteng kelas for about 1 weeks sbb pilih tiket flight yang murah untuk nak pg UNIMAS... eishhh, macam2 la dorang ni.. Tp xpe lah.. manusia kan ada banyak jenis.. sebab tu dunia ni tersangatlah wonderful and annoying sometimes.. tp annoying tu yg palig banyak nye.. menyampah!! :p Nightmare during holidays?? owhh, yeahhh, confirm la ada.. time nak dapat result.. huhhh, kecut perut, xblh tidur, semua jenis penykit la keluar.. i HATE my result.. not too good for me.. no DL for 1st sem.. huk3 :( and, sometimes, it hurt me when my others friend can score well and of course their result better than mine.. rasa down giler kot.. 'dont expect what is unexpected!!' huhhhh,,!! dah la silap tengok result.. biasa la, time tu bukak result dengan phone je.. masa 1st tengok tinggi la jugak and the funny things is, keep telling others about that pointer.. then lepas check balik dengan laptop, YA ALLAH!! silap tengok result pulakk... makin rendah tu... and sampai sekarang, x betulkan balik pun dekat kwn2 aku tntang result tu.. biarlah jadi rahsia kan.. haha... sorry yea semua... tp, xpelah.. aku punya result xda la bagus macam korang... Anatomy memang the best laaa... buat rosakkan result aku je, dah hodoh dah result aku.. nanti keluar transcrip nanti, malu la nak bawak g interview kerja nanti... Haissshhhh, why C?? hahaha... mmg lawak laa... salah aku jugak kot.. org baca anatomy and khatam buku anatomy, tapi aku layan MERLIN tu... bajet dah bagus sangat anatomy kan.. sebab tu x baca..  hehe... satu lagi bengang dengan clinical practise.. ingatkan dapat score A, tapi hampeh jugak... 1 group aku yg pergi practical sekali, xda pun yg dapat a wehh.. sengal betul laaa... memang terbaikk la CI aku tu.. semua dapat B+ je kut... aihhh, hampeh betul laaa... kalau x, ok la jugak result aku kan... ummm, so, for this sem, kena buat lagi baikk kot... InsyaAllah, for anatomy, kena score CA (continuous assessment) sebab nanti markah dia 60% and final 40%... x dapat A pun, B pun kira ok lah tu... At least nanti, xda la rosk lagi result aku kan.. Tp sem 2 ni, subject dia pun killer2 jugak semua... kena belajar pharmacology, respiratory in nursing, surgery in nursing lagi... So, kitorang blh buat 3 jenis pekerjaan... nurse, pharmacy and doctor.. Aishh,, susah jugak kot nak jd nurse for degree student ni... tapi kenapa orang2 kat luar sana xleh respect kitorang yea?? we, as a nurse, bukan jadi kuli doctor je tau.. so, my dekan (lecturer anatomy), said that knowledge can help us!! so, from now on, keep on fighting!!! One day, nurses in Malaysia can be at the same level as a doctor.. InsyaAllah, one day!! :) Imbau balik time cuti dulu, xtau kenapa diri aku rasa kosong je, sampai la sekarang, even dah start new sem.. Aku pun xtau kenapa.. Teringat jugak dulu, time belajar health psychology, lecturer tu ada cakap tentang 'perasaan kosong'.. time tu kitorang kenakan dia dngan cakap tentang lagu najwa latif yang tajuk 'kosong' tu.. haha.. jahat kan kitorg.. Tp, sekarang aku dapat rasa perasaan tu.. terdampar di kepulauan sepi yang mana xda penghuni langsung.. hanya berbicara dengan bayang2 sendiri.. tapi kadang2, bayang2 pun tinggalkan aku sendirian jugak.. Maybe, aku ok dekat luar, tp dalaman sangat terseksa.. I need someone who can know me well.. sorry friend, I need to pretend in front all of you.. Let u think that i'm always ok and nothings go wrong with me.. Hoping the best for this sem.. :)